Today i have a bad night in the morning, i cry when i was having a sleep! I cant stop my tear from crying out so i let out all my tears.
When i was young i was use to have a bad night, whenever i was dreaming i always feel that my mom will leave me and my brother one day because of my dad! Sometime i hate my dad because whenever he is drunk he will let out all his bad word and also let out what his heart and mind thinking!
Today i dream that i was scolding my dad badly in the dream, because in real life he hate me when he was drunk, he told me why every time cause him so much trouble! He always scold me for causing him so much trouble, when in the dream i scold him that no i want to cause u so many trouble, is i have no choice at all! whenever he say all those thing that is because of my healthy i will feel so hurt and i will start to cry!
when i was between 14 to 15 year old he asked me why i not a healthy child at all??? why causing so much trouble in life? so my answer in my mind was because of you or your mom have done something badly last year when i wasn't born out!
Yesterday(13/2/2012) my mom asked my brother if one day she and dad divorcee who will you(Brother Answer) want to follow, so my brother answer is he follow my mom and i will follow my dad!!!!
I told them i don't want but they say you must follow!( Answer From Me) If one day thing really happened i will not follow anyone at all, because if i follow my dad i will die very soon! So i have two choice from my own self:
