Whenever i had a bad dream, i will always felt so scared when im was awake after a bad dream..... Lots of the time i dream that my mom,dad,brother and grandma left me in the house alone and never came back again anymore and i always felt that my background has no light at all and whenever i wake alone i felt that someone is following me and also that i always need a light behind of me whenever i go :) Thats one time i had a dream that my mom was not in this world anymore and i felt im so hopeless when she was not alone, i always scared that this day will came but i know that when someone gets old and need to leave this world one day soon... So i hope that i can go before my parents so that i doesn't need to worried that one day all my relative and friends will leave me alone in this world... I hope that i can live happily in this world until i really cant take it anymore, i always think that if one person have no stress, no worried, no angry, nothing at all is that when they leave this world and with no worry..... My mom always think that i have no stress and nothing at all actually i have stress just that i doesnt want to think about it, but i still hope that one day Buddha will take me early that my parents :)
